Life

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

the lizards in my house are so fucking annoying i just wish i could ask someone to kill them for me.

fuck the lizards, of all times you choose to come out during my exams to torment me, full force.

i swear i'll do something after the papers. like hire the pest people to clear you and your friends out of my house for good and seal up all my windows so there are no more chances of you guys coming back and crawling all over my sofa, floor rugs, dining /coffee table and shitting all over the place.

it's just disgusting. and looking at them run all around my house just makes me feel so...dirty.

URRGGGGHH.

and i really should be studying and not ranting about stupid lizards.

Monday, January 28, 2008

i've updated my wishlish. shopping just makes me so happy. striking items off my list makes me happier.

i have no mood to study, the bf killed it. and for the record, i've never started.

i want a latex pillow so badly that i'm putting it up on my wishlist, the past few days spent on catching up on lost sleep hasnt been that successful as my pillow was giving me nasty back/neck/shoulder aches!

work was sucky. and i hope i score more days for feb, i need the money in march.

another random posts. yayness. they should make me the queen of all random-ness.
as much as i try to cheat myself, i can't carry it on anymore. NS sucks big time man.

pfft.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

the presentations are finally over!! and look what came in my inbox to cheer me up!!!

IPOD NANO!!! LOVE / LUST AT FIRST SIGHT INDEED!

and it's in PIIIIINNNNNKKKK!!!

so who the hell wants in in red or tiffany blue anymore when you can get it in pink?!

woots!!

The people at apple are so smart. they should have done this long ago for their new generation of nanos.

BUT. i also / still like the red and tiffany blue one..

booo!!!

this is tough!!!

and and i saw someone in school carrying a pink sony ericsson phone! but i can't find it on its main site! boo!!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

i screwed up big time,

fucked up big time,

biggest time ever in my two year in poly.

worse than not being able to identify with any of the questions for the final media buying and sales negotiation paper despite studying so hard for it.

worse than the comp crashing with my almost finalised donna proposal in it.

faaar worse than anything i could have imagined.

it was a bloody bleeding nightmare,

and the guilt from all that responsibility weighing down on me,

is just suffocating.

it's killing me, to not be able to be present tomorrow for the shooting, i would so love to bear the brunt of all.

afterall, it is my fault.

Monday, January 21, 2008

i just wanna stab myself.

lie on a bed of rusty nails and get some serious infection so i can just die!

OMG!

how can i rush things out in time!

it'd be a bloody miracle if i make it through sane.

P.S. to my left eyelid, are you sure that when you twitch it means good luck? from where i am, things dont really seem to be heading anywhere good.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

lived through another week,
under the pile of never-ending project work.

pushing myself quite close to the edge this time,
i have no idea as to how much more i can take.

the pressure just seems to be weighing down so hard this time,
i'm not sure if i can cope.

the fear of not being able to perform up to my own set of standards,
just makes me feel pretty worthless.

being forced out of my comfort zone,
makes me feel so bare and naked.

i just hate it when my weakness shows through. when the tears fall.
when i feel so alone.

but,
there's no chance for me to drown myself in my own self-arranged misery.
no. i will not allow it.
i will bounce back up and face the situation as an even stronger person than before.
i wish,

thank god it's friday.
cmcmcmcmcmcmcm!

Monday, January 14, 2008

being with you is extremely addictive. and not having you by my side for most of the days, just never fails to make me miss you more...

it's a sick vicious cycle.

if only it were friday.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

school's been a bitch. and if you didn't know, the japan post is under the 1st Jan one.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

As we bid 2007 goodbye, i can't help but look back and recall the many different happenings that took place. Be it happy or sad.

2007 has made me realise the importance of being more tolerant and forgiving. It has also taught me to better cherish all the people that i have close, and not to take people for granted.

All in all, I'm quite glad to say that 2007 has made me a better person. =)

I do have high hopes for the new year, i shan't call them resolutions, as i might get put off and not go on to fulfilling them..

I hope that i will be able to work harder in school, and not slack off or get lazy.

I hope that i will be able to continue saving, so that by the end of 2008 i might have a tidy sum to put me through to uni (hopefully), or maybe another holiday. =X

I hope that i will be able to improve myself by maybe reading up on finances / investments / business-related shizz and maybe start to draft out concrete plans for the future.

I hope that i will be able to learn more and grow to control my temper and moods better.

On a lighter note, the new year calls for a new wish list, no?

My new wish list for 2008 (as at 01/01/2008):

A Bottle Of Burberry Brit Sheer.
J'adore Fragrance.
Mauboussin.
An ipod (either tiffany blue or red please).
That COACH keyring.
New heels.
Dresses from Zara.
An iphone/new handphone.
HandbagS.
Eyeliner.
Paul & Joe foundation.
Fox denim skirt.
More Big shades.
Bracelet.
Good attachment slot.
to lose 20kg.

cash.

goody. i can't wait. i'm all excited already. hurhur.

i do hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas. Here's to a good and fulfilling 2008!

Happy New Year! =)

With lots and lots of love,