| Saturday, November 10, 2007 |
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sometimes you can't help but think about the past. sometimes, you just can't help but miss how things were back then. how simple and uncomplicated life was. the simple bus rides from school home with cm, listening in to the same mp3 player - the usual jay chou songs that cm adores and sharing a tube of mentos. the long walk to school that we used to take every monday.. such simple pleasures used to give me so much joy. hanging out at Mos burger with shing, sherwin and cm.. doing chemistry, geography and mugging away hard for our O levels.. pigging out at shing's with fries, bubble tea and back then, seventeen magazines.. being able to completely trust the people around you, the close friends beside you. it's amazing how the simplest of things back then are so difficult to do right now. cm and i are usually so tired from our weekday schedules that we spend our bus rides asleep on each other's shoulders.. i don't seem to be able to mug with that determination i had back during my Os. i just cant seem to find it. shing's forever busy. with lasalle. even if i pop by, she's usually half asleep. haha. she's turning into a club bitch. right shing? lol. now even when we want to meet we have to tally our schedules and timetables. it's plain annoying. and the thing about trust. it's just not as easy as it was, no? Prolly we were younger, we did not constantly keep our guard against the people we mix with. we were more trusting. or maybe i was.. overly trusting if there's one thing i hate about myself - it's how easy i get emotionally attached to the people around me. the same it happened in primary school, and then again in secondary school. i've warned myself, before i stepped into poly, not to have that happen all over again. but i guess it did. or maybe i'm just over-reacting. but this time i realised it's not as easy to trust the people i hang out with. and it's hard to live your life being attached to people whom you cannot fully trust. i have no idea what i'm rambling about, but i guess the old saying is true? you'll meet all your good friends in secondary school. maybe, only time would tell. |