Monday, July 16, 2007 |
i feel like such a bitch. i just wanna run somebody down, take it out on someone... yet perhaps, i prolly did. sorry iffah. it really didnt make me feel any better. just made me feel worse. i feel like: puking out my dinner. throwing my computer monitor on the floor. turning on the shower and standing underneath it for like forever and not come out and face the world anymore. applying bleach under my eyes. washing all my clothes and bags. cleaning my table. mopping the floor. throwing up. basically, just throwing up.. i'm so disgusted with myself. and with the work that i've been producing. i. feel. like. shit. oh, and it doesn't help that my blog isnt google-proof. so hi you-know-who! welcome to my life. |
Saturday, July 14, 2007 |
you can't plead the fleeting moment to remain forever. you can't blame me for feeling bitter. |
Tuesday, July 10, 2007 |
i feel like dying. the work doesnt stop coming in. i can't get into my working mood and i feel so jittery - i can't even sit still for half an hour. oh. and i also i feel like shit. and look like shit. so shitty that even downing a whole bottle of lancome's hydrazen fluid and biotherm hydra yeux cream is so not going to help. just the thought of me screwing up this semester makes me wanna stab myself with a pink fountain pen. goodbye world. hello perma-dark circles and eye bags! i see that you're here to stay.. |