Life

Saturday, August 26, 2006

i hate feeling this helpless. it just hurts me so, to hear her being so upset and lost.. and at the same time, know that there's nothing much that i can do to cheer her up. i really can feel her pain.. be strong shing. i'll always be here for u.

baby. i feel so rotten.. where are you when i need you the most?

Thursday, August 24, 2006

ok. so here's an entry to explain my lagging in posting new blog entries. i have been tied down since last week, to what eoin calls, a deskjob. in my mother's company. at ubi industrial park, which is literally the other side of singapore for me.

so here's a picture of my lovely desktop. yeah. i know it's frigging neat, cause that picture was taken at 9am, you should see how it looks like around 6pm..

so my basic job duties includes answering the office phone in the sultriest of all voices, forwarding the calls to the respective people and answering the intercom. seems like i'm doing the duties of what most people would refer to as of a receptionist right? wrong. i have to also type claims and quotations, in awful construction jargon (furring angles, boral impact board 3' x 7") which i can simply never understand and do endless and endless piles of filing.

look. the below pile took me about errm. 1.5 days. i had to key everything into the master comp and then file them up in alphabetical order according to their company name and then sort them in acending numerical order. sheesh.

i'm doing all these for $8/hr. sometimes i just feel that it ain't worth it at all, having my mum to breathe down my neck from her office behind my cubicle. it's stressful to have to work in a company where your mum's the GM. there's a certain standard i have to maintain and it's tiring keeping it up..honestly i'd rather go back to lancome any day. at least i have fun there..or do joshua's as there's almost a quarter of 01 people working there.

Anyway, cm told me to check this out on www.mrbrown.com i know Zoe Tay looks a bit like Jolin Tsai here in the billboard but check out the captions:

"My secret to beautiful skin? I swallow."

i know it's quite bad advertising but i think it's really funny. couldnt stop laughing when i heard it. So now at least we know where she gets her good skin from...oh. and today's yuhan's birthday!! (first hot babe from the left) this picture of us was taken backstage of the esplanade, one of the shower stalls in the waiting room, we were high on something then while waiting for our turn to perform.

Happy birthday babe! may u have many many more enjoyable pe lessons and bump into your eyecandy more often in school! take care and have a nice day, though you've got stupid detention. =) meet up soon ya!

Saturday, August 19, 2006

Met up with alison and sihui today for lunch and a little bit of shopping before heading down to the Common.Voices concert. alison has really slimmed down alot *stop denying it* It felt really good to be able to catch up with them, cause we haven't met up in like ages!

Went for lunch at the takashimaya foodhall!! the food there was kinda good.. they serve quite decent pasta and the pricing, reasonable. i really didn know they sold pasta there..i usually head out to that stupid over-priced italian restaurant opposite pepper lunch for my pasta fix when i'm at takashimaya..

Anyway, I volunteered to help out at the concert as i felt bad for not being able to join them for the performance this time round so here's the pin Song gave me for playing the role of an usher!

quite cute i know. ahaha. pardon the ugly, chipped manicure!

i think i might be joining CV though i might envision myself having a little problem blending into their group. but well, i do need that extra credit and i do miss singing and performing. the vocal consort has shifted to siglap now and its too far for me to travel over for practice.. so, why not right? Guess i might join them for carolling this year, so long it doesnt clash with my travel schedule for december.

oh. i also went down yesterday night after work, to watch them rehearse. so here's like the CV choir in err. should i say 3/4 strength. CV's kinda small, only 16 members if i'm not wrong..

Picture of performance on actual night, i think folk songs suit CV better rather than those french and english ones. This time round the concert was much better than the previous. can really see that they have grown as a choir, no more big noticeable boo-boos!

here's evelyn. getting prettier and prettier.
The CV gang went to celebrate the success of their concert after the encores and phototaking sessions so alison, sihui and i went over to esplanade's The V Tea Room to get some drinks.

Their menus are really cute. and so are the names for their items. i was contemplating getting the 'Woman with the big O" smoothie..

but ended up getting up the 'Mango Creamsicle'. well nothing fantastic to rah-rah about. just vanilla ice cream and mangoes blended, and topped with, i don't get this, peach which was pre-soaked in alcohol as it had that distinct tangy taste. and i thought my drink was supposed to be mango.
alison and sihui had the coffee. it was kinda cute really, hot coffee topped with a scoop of ice cream and a small pathetic piece of cookie by the side. but they said it tastes quite good..Looks like something u can get for like say, $5 right? they paid $7 for this cup of coffee if i'm not mistaken..
but i really didn mind the price cause the ambience was really nice? super cosy with the yellow lights around and the european setting of the shop.. they even have fresh roses on display! it's a nice place to go for an after-dinner chat.

OH. and eoin would so love that place i tell you, it's kinda made to please the ego-istic man. the waitresses there dress up in maid costumes!

Sunday, August 13, 2006

cm picked me up from work yesterday and we went for dinner and to catch yesterday's fireworks too. they were a little disappointing so yeah. no pictures..

This picture of cm is for hsien. look at how happy my bf is when talking to you. lol. now u'd believe me eh?

so while we waited for the fireworks, we went to the fullerton hotel, to like sit around. the interior's really pretty..

and so are the couches provided on the lobby. really cosy stuff.

ANYWAY, today cm and i went for the team france fireworks display and before that went shopping at marina square. bumped into amanda and guy too.

look at what kids get these day. this is the brand of a toy..

so we went over like around 6plus and managed to get this really good spot at the highway bridge infront of the fullerton hotel. it was like right infront of the water, no heads blocking! super cool, albeit the tight squeeze with the uncles beside and their really professional looking cameras on the tripods. i waited patiently while i chew on my mint chocolates and gummy sweets..

view on my right, the merlion..

and the left, the crowd by the esplanade bay..
well. so we stood around for like really long, then it started to get dark, so i could amuse myself by taking nightshots with my camera..and so, around 830, all the bumboats of singapore came into the bay, and i managed to snap a shot of some.. and then it was back to waiting and more waiting then...the display finally started! i didn managed to get pictures of the first act though..i was too mesmerised by the display. it was really pretty with the music..

the theme of tonight's show was "Celebration of life"

this year there were loads of these kinda fancy stuff.. all the parachuting style and waterfall kind.
well, the main color for the display was gold. and the gold fireworks are like my ultimate favourite. especially those that linger and leave like a trail in the air..super pretty..
oh. and the official website for the singapore fireworks festival mentioned something about the team france show having a surprise? well this is it. fireworks shot out from the water surface.. two different areas, at each side of the display, the one on the left looked like this

then the grand lead up to the finale. haha. i like these pictures a lot. can capture the golden fireworks and their trails.

yeah. so loads of pictures eh? haha. to me, the show was definitely worth the long 3hour wait.

i love fireworks! =)

and it's like the last date for me and cm before his prelims.. study hard baby =)

Thursday, August 10, 2006

It's 3am and im not excatly in the best of moods. The howling of the wind, and the stupid raindrops pounding against the window only succeed in making me feel worse.

had a quibble with cm, and we talked. i know, we quarrel almost every week, but this time it's different. i can feel its difference..post-quarrel talks used to help us bond better, understand each other better. But this time, after we hung up the phone, i just felt so lost.

As cliche as it can sound, i somehow always felt that connection between us, even though we're not together. i could just somehow just sense his presence as i'm going along doing my daily activities. Recently, i feel nothing. zero. nada. zilch.

the emptiness in me, just scares me so.

i can tell we're growing distant with time. heck. i know we're getting distant. very distant in fact. it just saddens my heart so. to know that he is there, but i just cant reach out to him.

maybe it's me, being too devoted to school, or as he calls it, an obsession. Him dealing with prelim and A level stress and having to put up with my neglecting of him..

or maybe i should just stop looking for excuses. and face the fact that maybe it's true, that i don't love him as much as he does me.
but the truth just hurts so bad, i really have tried hard to make things work. to put up with all the nonsense that came along the way. But that's still not equivalent to the 100% that he has given me? and it just hurts to know that all this while i might have been short-changing him.

he's now in bed as i sit by the computer typing out my emo thoughts and revealing the weakest side of me for all to see. although i know he's feeling as hurt as i am, and prolly a lot more tired, i just somehow wish, that he would volunteer to stay up with me, through this sleepless night, to keep me company and give me comfort.

the rain outside seems to be on the same wavelength as me-the incessant rhythm of it falling, seems to be perfectly in sync with my crying heart.

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

Well this is a totally overdue entry of saturday but i didn post this up because we would be showing the pictures for ha's presentation on monday night. oh well. i though the presentation went well? just that the Q&A session sucked la. he was like trying to make things difficult for us. like urrghh!

these are the two pictures which i liked best out of the photoshoot.. the one with iffah and cm.. iffah's totally showing the "alamak" expression and cm looks really exasperated. haha.

i like this cause you can see the difference in which a guy and a girl holds his or her kueh lapis!
anyway, eoin's group presentation totally cranked me up? it was damn good can? with the super professional looking slides which seemed so much like jessica's photoshop work.. it was really good. and the jingle. well that was like the best. i also liked the slutty mistress picture. haha! and the kueh lipas or however you spell it.. i laughed till i cried.

and well i should conclude that ha likes weird proposal? like the one about the swordsmen? not that i'm trying to be mean or whatsoever, i really didn get that one..

Anyway, something on saturday happened that made me hate MRT rides like even more..

on saturday, while i was on my way to anjana's place from lakeside mrt station, i was on the train with cm, and i was like putting on my make up. then this guy boarded at i think jurong east? there were no seats so he was standing infront of us, and he was like totally looking at me do my makeup.

i just brushed it off, thinking that maybe it was just a glance so i went on, dabbing foundation mascara blah...and then the guy managed to get a seat beside cm.

so cm was in between me and the sicko guy. and the guy was like leaning forward, like looking past cm to look at me. then i started thinking that he was weird, but i still didn stop doing my make up until cm scolded me cause he said no matter how he tried to block his vision, he still positions his head in a way so that he can see me.

so i looked over to check and guess what i saw!! the guy was like drooling can? he was like using his hand to wipe the drool off his mouth. i was so grossed out and freaked.

ohoh, and the worst thing was that everyone in the carriage was like looking at the weird guy look at me. it was a little embarassing. even though we came to the conclusion after we alighted that he was a little retatarded. (i'm not being mean here, he really had that glazed out look in his eyes) i still felt a little disgusted.

and yes. he looked at me throughout the entire journey. when we alighted, he was like still trying to look out of the train admist the people.

can you spell eww?

urrghh. i hate MRTs. trust me, if i do my make up on the bus like i usually do, no one will like even notice la!

i hate MRTs. and as iffah would say, period. =)

Saturday, August 05, 2006

i have nothing to blog about so i'll blog about the guys in class. so ok, this picture basically sums up number of guys in my class. just the 6 of them.

here's eoin. who in the picture is refusing a hump from a very cheery leonard. poor eoin. everything he says sounds wrong. and whenever sex is mentioned, eoin's name would never be far from it, cause everyone (most i think) sees him as this serious and horny guy. but he's seriously cute, with a damn sexy voice and attitude and err. polo tees? ohoh! and the confidence..and really. somehow i just think of him as cute. and damn hot, err. in that intellectual way.
p.s. he's my secret crush!

Leonard. my first crush in nyp. he looks so cute here. just like some little boy. don't your heart somehow just melt when you see this pic? it's so cute. and he's always cheery and happy and always has these lime and strawberry flavoured vitaC sweets in his bag to hand out..oh. and he owes me this heart-shaped bak kua and he raps really well. lol.

matthew. or fondly referred to as matt. i shall continue feeding his ego to manda's chagrin as i really think he's cute, in a bunny sense. oh. and matthew loves to take pictures and he galek's ( i dunno how to spell) when he walks.
oh, and kelvin. he's the best to talk to on msn. very entertaining. die hard man-u fan and super funny. dresses up basically in almost red and white everyday and he has this really cute tie. (we share this really deep secret too. right kel? *sniggers*)
oh. and another one is habez. but i'm not putting his pic up here lest cindy kills me.

ANYWAY. recently i've been so tensed and twitchy, hsien suggested that i should go for a spa break or something and i'm like why not. so now i'm looking for kakis who would wanna go to batam with me for a spa weekend during our term break. It's not really expensive. less than 200 (includes 2way ferry trip) if we're gonna stay there for a night and have 2.5hrs spa session for 3days consecutive. oh and we could even do watersports!

Thursday, August 03, 2006

didn sleep again last night, and i know i'm supposed to be sleeping like now but all that chatting with manda about mac and twits got me like really high.. dammit. it's exhausting to be high while you're already tired.

tensions are on the high with all the projects this week due next to next, and all the stupid presentations. i can't wait to get over with ha's kueh lapis storyboard already? then i'll be able to slack as i study for marketing and the intro to media thing.

oh. i was literally dozing off during the test today? i know my handwriting normally is bad enough but my handwriting today was disastraous. cause i still continued writing on even though my eyes were like half closed.

anyway i quite like the movie he showed us today? it's something lame and retarded and quite cute. it somehow strangely reminded me of secondary sch where mandric once brought this battle royale disc and we watched the thing as a class..the feeling of both shows were kinda similar.

anyhows. i'm going off to bed like now. pictures of the cute guys in my class tomorrow! i know matt and leonard can hardly wait.

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

i'm very sorry to those who got offended by my ego-istic entry earlier on.

anyway!

did any of you read todays paperS? on the topic where they're trying to curb the rates of teenage sex? especially for the people in the malay community? the ministers are like worried cause amongst the high abortion rates, there's a high number of malay teens?

anyhows. there's this point in the papers which really cracked me up. like how they are roping in people from the community to help in this abstinence drive? and they're getting like TAXI DRIVERS to "preach" at young couples who board their taxis. like tell them all the advantages on abstinence..

or something like that. i can't really remember everything word for word so pardon me if it's not 100% accurate.

but i just think its so funny. like imagine. those muds and minahs board the taxi and they like have a cuddle on the backseat and the uncle in front goes

uncle: "eh..no cuddling in the backseat. abstinence is good for you. you two better separate your bodies or the girl will get pregnant" (something crappy along that line)

and come on la. u can just imagine their reactions right? i think they'll most probably give the poor-trying-to-be-helpful taxi uncle the finger.

i think the whole thing is just funny. not that i'm not pro-abstinence or whatever. i mean yeah. i still think the whole idea of keeping yourself for marriage is sweet but getting taxi uncles to preach to young couples on abstinence?

i just don't get it.

ohoh! anyway. i love that song 'buttons' by pussycat dolls? haha, it's nice!! and do you know why you sick people are like so hooked onto cough syrups? it's because one bottle contains 2% opium!! u sick asses. haha. i got to know that from habez who learnt of it from a really very reliable source!