| Saturday, May 27, 2006 |
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feeling emotional after talking to zihan just now. he made me realise how much i miss singing. acjc choir's concert is on monday and they are going to London for $3000 for a competition. wow... i miss training for competitions. and for concerts..sigh had been trying a fucking half an hour to load my old choir pics up but i cant seem to get it done. i miss css choir. i miss the vocal consort. i miss singing. without choir. my life seems kinda hollow even though i have cm, school and work to keep me busy. Thinking back of the Australia trip with css. the genting trip with css and tvc. the two concerts with tvc. the syf and concerts and many many performances with css. i really miss my choir life. really. though it's busy, it was fulfilling. thinking back of choir makes me miss my choir peeps even more. fangyi, zihan, peiling, cedric, sherwei, yuhan, xiaoting, wenhsien, debs, juitlian, jason, ernest... i remember quartet positions, they were really fun, especially singing with jason in quartet, lying on the floor to train for syf.. imagining the syf scene twice in the black music room. the musty smell of the carpets. the dreading to attend practices. the trips in the bus to siglap..nelson.. celtic blessing was like beautiful, and the jubilate concert, though i had like a pathetic short solo, i remembered how i felt then, nervous and stressed. remembered nelson commented that i look as though i was gonna give birth on stage! hah! i also remember yuki nohi, miao jia shao nu, daemon...=) the singing of "now every tree" around the bush in siglap CC like at night, practicing "janger" and "wayang kulit" and "ave maria" like in the very very tiny room in siglap with tvc, making the walls vibrate, the wonderful sensation of the sounds produced by the tvc then..it was just..delightful. no words can describe how i felt then.. i remember ave maria very vividly. i remembered the sound of it when sung in the css school hall, one could really feel the sense of release in the song..the dynamics were just..wow. almost every song performed by tvc was like wow. i was lucky to get through the auditions for the small group category for the competition, being one of the youngest singer, and feeling the sense of pride when we got awarded the gold diploma. i guess that what i like about the tvc, every song has it's oomph. it's magic. it's ability to touch hearts. it's dynamics and blend... i miss singing, the sense of release you experience when you belt out your notes. the harmonious feeling you get when you hear all the voices blend as one... i think i know how it really is now, to live a life without passion. it's dull. i'll try posting pics up tomorrow. |