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Wednesday, March 29, 2006

had a scare for nothing. my course offer form states that my last date of enrolment is 5th april!! phew!!

anyway, shall blog about batam. so yeah i went over last weekend. left on sat afternoon and came back to sg on sun around eight-ish. my actual purpose of going over was actually just purely for the two spa sessions, but well. the resort we stayed at turned out to be quite lovely!! turi beach resort. here are some pictures!

the beach..
the pool
My bed!!!!
view from the pool...

yeah. when we arrived we went straight to Mustika ratu which is a spa owned by my mum's boss in batam. so yeah. had a 2hr30 min session. it was quite nice. i love the massages, did a seasalt body mask too!

after spa, went for dinner at this seafood place then we went back to the resort and went for karoke! drank like 5cocktails. got a little high. heh. had vodka shots with coke too. downed like 3.. the bill was picked up by my mum's batam boss on one condition that i sing with him as everyone else didn dare to. so ya, for the drinks i sang songs like "let it be" "desperado" super old oldies!! and that u look wonderful tonight song. lolx. he's a great singer. it was fun.

i love oldies!

oh ya. the resort's karoke system in the pub sucks. the latest song they have is "shake your bon bon " and "viva forever" ricky martin and spice girls. lolx..so 1997.

the next day went to watch them do sea sports..got sunburnt by staying in the shade and then for for another 2hr30min spa session at the spa in the resort! i swear it's fucking-fantastic!!! the massage. man. it's the best ever ever!! urut massage or something. can't remember what it's called but the massage movements are like flowing waves. super relaxing!!

after that had dinner and came back to singapore. yeah. so that was my weekend in batam..

our birthdays this week but we don't have the chance to spend either of it together. it's freaking sad. with all his rehearsals, my work and the poly stuff to keep me busy...i had all this weird tension building up inside me which i assumed was pure stress..

but i just realised what that feeling is...

it's loneliness. and this feeling sucks.

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

ok. just had a chat with tanyaw and realised! that everything for the nanyang poly enrolment has to be in by 30th march. woopdeedoo!! i haven't even took my photo yet. fuck. and i'm working everyday, even on the 30th. there's no time for me to go see to these stuff. urrghh.

i need to take the photo for my matriculation card tomorrow. no more delaying! fuck. regretted not takin it early, i'm like sunburnt now la.sheesh!!!

i'm so tired. did afternoon shift today and the next three days i'm doing morning. but what to do. i'm in serious need of money.

will blog about batam in another entry. too tired now.

i miss cm. we haven't went out for a long long time. stupid campus finals. he has to go down for rehearsal everyday for the rest of the week. even on his birthday! boo.

i miss cm. i miss the spas in batam too. wished i kidnapped one of the therapist home.

with the stress level currently on super high, i can really kill for one of those uber-relaxing massages.

Saturday, March 25, 2006

Turi beach resort tomorrow!!! i'm seriously in need of relaxing..=)

decided not to dye my hair brown. i really love my current color too much.

was packing my luggage for the weekend when i realised i couldn't find my swimsuit..so i figured it would be at hsien's. and yep. it's there. waking up half an hour to get it tomorrow. i really pray she doesn't get up all groggy and bring down only the bottom piece or something. *actually i hope she does that, so i'll blackmail my mom into buying me a new one! hah!* but anyway, thanks hsien! =) appreciate it loads.

G-masked my exilim camera so now it's red with like a yellow floral design. i love it though my sis claims that the skin resembles curry with too much oil..=/ spoiler.

can't change mon's afternoon shift to morning. fuck. that means i can't watch cm on tv.

i seriously get this extra extra huge kick when i see my boyfriend on tv. lolx! he just looks so adorable!

arrgh..i'm so pissed with the lancome counter work schedule.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

well, i had a sleepless night yesterday. was up till 6am, in my bed, alone. thinking about my future and the two courses that i currently have on hand, deciding which one to sign up for.

yep. so in the end i decided on nanyang polytechnic's Diploma in Media Studies and Management. i think that's the closest i can get to my dream mass comm course..and i think it provides a wider career path as compared to retail management. so, i hope my final choice is right for me..

going off to turi beach resort this weekend. i'm quite excited really because from what i see in the website, the rooms look very promising! =)

working tomorrow. i'm quite lazy to work actually. but well, i need the money. i'm intending to treat cm to indochine for his birthday dinner! =)

oh. one spoiler. i have to re-dye my hair cause the stupid nayang application form says no artificial coloured hair, and i think my current color is really, errm. too obvious an artificial shadE? so yeah..i have to do it fast and quick cause i need to take stupid passport pictures to send in with my poly applications which are soon to be due! I can't believe they actually even laid down rules for students when taking the pictures. like saying we can't wear spag tops etc etc. prude school.

so, i have to think of a new hair color. most probably taking one of those brown shades. but man, i really think i need highlights to bring out the effect of my quite-new perm..

i wonder if highlights on "natural" brown hair are considered artificial..

Monday, March 20, 2006

i'm wating for hsien to finishing playing her super retarded game so that we can make plans for our shopping! trip tomorrow. she said she had another 2% to go for her level up but 10mins has past and i don't see her yet.

so, i'll blog to entertain myself!

cm's having his block test? (i dun really know what it's called) so yeah, i'm trying super hard not to distract my darling. so. i went out with guorui (with cm's consent) on saturday!

we went shopping at marina square and it was quite fun as he knew my taste quite well and actually managed to point out to me alot of stuff which i didn take note of and yet really suits me. saw many many items that i so wanna buy. like the two Ripcurl bags!! and the long white Ripcurl and OZOC skirt. and a white Zara top with like gold prints on it.

but there's this disadvantage when i go out with him, he walks like waay too fast and it's difficult to keep up with his speed with corns on the soles of your feet. =/

watched 'Home Alone part 1' with my daddy and sis today at home. teared when i watch the ending. when the family were like together again on christmas morning and the old man going back to his son.

i hate happy family endings. ever since the day my family became like how it is now. i always cry whenever i see such an ending. maybe because it reminds me of the painful fact that i'll never get to experience such family warmth and happiness from this family of mine again..

reading tony parson's 'man and wife' again doesn't help much too. it just kinda reinforces the fact that my family is practically non-existent and to be truthful, it's really quite painful.

it also made me realise that children are actually quite an essential part of a happy family. so yeah. reading the book actually made me want to have kids.

but. not so soon.=) i'll just be satisfied playing with other people's children in the meantime!

p.s. hsien finally came online. excited bout her new weapon. =/ sheesh..

Saturday, March 18, 2006

i now have a place in nyp's media and communications..

but i'm not very happy about it although it's a mass communications course.

i now get to choose between tp's retail or this option...

but honestly... i would rather get sp's mass com den nyp's..

Friday, March 17, 2006

bad news..

i upset my mum over a comment on the camera she "bought". so yeah. she's taking it back to the office. and i have no more camera!! boO hoo..

second thing, the Evita Peroni pelican clip is like $99 so haha. fat hope on getting it soon..the double comb is like $60? equally as expensive..i guess i just have to settle for Chomel..

sp's second cut is tomorrow...i really hope i can make it through. for both tp and sp. it would be great to get a chance to choose between two offers..

nights!

Thursday, March 16, 2006

my birthday is coming...**cheers**

i want the Evita Peroni pelican clip or the double comb!!

it's just gorgeous....

*HINTS!!!* =D

i just read an email and found out that i passed my writing test at sp and have been selected for an interview this fri morning.

i was estatic but, another quarrel with cm spoilt my mood entirely.

fuck it.

Wednesday, March 15, 2006

feel so lonely..

even looking at my "new" digicam that my mom got for me as a birthday present doesn't cheer me up much.

actually i'm more excited over my spa session at this batam resort next week. i think it's the best present mom can ever get me..

=( i miss cm. why did he have to go night-cycling..

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

the most embarassing thing in my 16years of life happened today.

i was tryin to be smart and decided to rush for the train which doors were already closing. yep. i tried to stop in with my hands. and guess what? the doors decided to trap my bag and i was seen like an idiot trying to yank my bag out. i swear it was super unglam.

so i was yanking my paper bag out and the next best thing happened to me. my handphone fell out and dropped onto the train tracks!! yeah. so i had to go all the way down to the control station and get the officers to fish my phone out for me. the worse thing was three of the officers had to go up to the platform with their walkie-talkies just to fish the phone up for me. everyone at the platform was wondering what went wrong and all of them were like peering down at the train tracks to see what happened.

So, when one of the officers fished the phone up for me, everyone was like staring at me. i swear, that is the most embarassing moment ever!!!!

i'll so never ever run after a train again.

and i believe it happened because of my dream. i swear having mr singh in your dream is a bad omen.

It's the second time in the past month that i had him in my dreams. the first time, he was a terrorist which blew up the bus that hsien den n me were on. i screwed something important i had to do that morning.

yesterday night, i dreamt of him giving me and hsien literature remedial in the student centre. he was humming away and i asked him to shut up. then, he started singing huang hun by zhou chuan xiong, like super duper loud and in perfect pronounciation. it was so loud that the fake walls of the student centre were like vibrating and at the doors there were like loads of people peeping in, of the many people i recognized mr faizal, mr choo and the sri lanka office auntie.

enough about my dream. working tomorrow at isetan orchard. bless my poor feet.

Monday, March 13, 2006

i have last chances to score a place in mass communications in either singapore poly or temasek poly.

my sp writing test is today and my interview with tp tomorrow.

frequent emotional outbursts with cm doesn't help matters. it just makes it worse.

i'm just not in the right state of mind to go and take up these chances. i just feel so messed up and wronged. the conversation with cm this morning just made me feel as though i'm really unreasonable when i'm so not. urrghh.

i hate quarrels. life would be so much better without them.

Sunday, March 12, 2006

finally permed my hair. still convincing myself that i look fine. cm says i have this jolin feel and hsien says a feel like a foreigner, a new yorker.

i'd rather be a new yorker than jolin any time..

Friday, March 10, 2006

work today was quite fun. made 2000something in sales so ya. i'm quite pleased. Hsien came down to look me up for lunch today (actually it was to test try the hypnose mascara) and i made her wait for me like an idiot for close to one hour as i was busy attending to 2big customers then. i'm so sorry. hope my lunch treat made up for it!

yeah. so sales was brisk today. was busy non-stop and i came home to realise that i have this blister bubble on the sole of my tiny right toe. it sucks. i swear when it bursts its going to hurt like hell. i hate blisters.

My lv shoes were advertised on Urban today on the what she wants page. =) it made my day.

oh ya! my cousin's girlfriend is this sales manager for Lv. u know what's so cool about her job? she actually gets allowance to cut her hair each month and they actually iron and wash their uniform for them. i didn know that so i thought i should like put it down here to motivate me when i take up retail in tp's gorgeous campus... Cues in : i love retail management. i love retail management. i love tp.

was browsing through blogs just now and i read jiahao's entry. it made me upset again. weilong, ivan, ruiming, him and shannon! got into mass comm. bloodyshit. just as i was starting to forget about it..the disappointment comes creeping back in again..

oh well.
made blueberry muffins with cm the other day! it was great fun..

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

do i really look like his mom in this picture? one of his fans said so. I'm quite affected.

she might as well have said i looked like the Queen's mother!

fuck.

now i'm just concentrating on having my new hairstyle in a way that will crush any chance of me looking like his mom. again.

double fuck.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

i have given up on all hopes of being able to score a position for any mass comm course in any poly. so. yesh. i have to go on telling myself how much i love business courses and retail management and that i'm very lucky having managed to get such a course which has an intake of less than 150.

constant problems doesn't make my mood any better either.

therefore i've decided last night n quite a haste that i either need to do something drastic to myself i.e a tattoo, piercing or a new hairdo or spend alot alot of money to make myself feel better.

so! it occurred to me. why not do something big with my hair? i'll be spending money and having a big change! yeah. so now i'm looking for hair styles. i'm gonna either perm my hair or chop off my lockS! the dye job will be done before poly starts.

i'm so frigging excited!!! haha.

i love temasek poly. i love retail management.

Monday, March 06, 2006

i'm tired after a day of drama at work. i just want to go to sleep but i realised i couldn't. i swear my body clock's screwed.

going to ngee ann, singapore and nanyang poly tomorrow with hsien. i'm seriously worried about that girl. she's like this over-exerted balloon, on the verge of exploding anytime.

retail management. i'm trying to make myself fall in love with that course since saturday. i realised that i constantly tell myself that the course ain't that bad. ya, the worse thing is that it actually works and i'm losing the drive to go fight for a position in any mass comm course.

was talking to sinyee just now. made me realise how much i kinda miss secondary school life. it's just so simple and straightforwrd. i still remember how we both used to rush to saturday choir sessions together in e cab. we're like late for almost every session. haha. i still remember one particular morning whereby mr seah actually stopped us while we were running to the music room to punish us for not tucking in and for wearing coloured socks...

haha. i miss mr seah.

Saturday, March 04, 2006

i'm currently in a huge mess. or should i say major mess. i have no idea at all, on which path i should choose. everything's just muddled up in my mind. i just hate it when i can't process my thoughts clearly, problems with cm doesn't make the situation any better either.

my current posting is temasek poly's retail management, i mention that and everyone goes "oh the course that teaches you how to arrange stuff". i really wonder what gave them that idea. i get feedback from people, asking me to enrol into pure business as they say retail management course is sucky and the future prospects are well, quite bleak. i kinda agree with it i mean, how far can u go working in the customer service line? and i really dun see myself setting up a store selling clothes or stuff, maybe lingerie..but that's tough as very few singapore women would travel beyond the comfort zone of sorella and triumph.

imagine being a beauty advisor all my life. i think i'll die from madness.

went to temasek poly today with hsien, appealed for media and commnications position through direct school admission. i've decided to appeal to all the poly's mass comm courses (ngee ann and singapore poly on monday!) . i think that is really the only path that i'm interested in. it's just sad that i have to go through so much trouble just because my english didn make the grade.

but now. i know. the chances of me landing in a mass comm course is as slim as me getting to buy my LV bag. therefore, i'm very very worried and confused. should i stay put in retail management and just give one last shot at all the mass comm courses? or should i actually try applying to ngee ann's business studies at the same time also.

something tells me that i should try applying for business studies..it's safer to have a backup i guess..

i hate making decisions.

63850411. the no to call to save me.
i think i'm getting a wee bit mental.
woodbridge!! bring me a nice comfy pink cushioned cell.

Friday, March 03, 2006

NUMBED.
Mind's in a whirl. i just can't seem to focus my thoughts properly.
there's so much i want to do. so much i want to say...
but.
i just can't seem to know where to find that source of energy and strength to go on anymore.

Game plan : first to ngee ann. try appealing for my dream course again. then down to singapore poly, appeal media and communications and then home.

if only it's that simple. i can't think of another power suit no matter how hard i try.

there goes my confidence.

not even my killer heels can help me out today.

Wednesday, March 01, 2006

i'm feeling very empty.

must be the darn
Louis Vuitton Monogram Vernis Raspberry collection

i swear. it was made for me.

....only if i can ever get my hands on it...

oh. i'll die to work in lV. polishing the bags alone must be a form of luxury!!

**droOls**